Several years ago, I thought to myself: “Why is
life SO HARD?” I know I am intelligent, fairly attractive, and I am pretty
nice…. so why can't I attract a relationship with a good guy? why can’t I keep these
last 10 pounds off? Why can’t I make more money?
As I thought about this, I had to admit, I HAD
attracted nice guys…I just wasn’t attracted to them. I had gotten very close to
my ideal weight goal - but then would eat a pile of donuts. I had many
opportunities to make money, but did not follow through with my action steps
and commitments. But WHY - What the heck is WRONG WITH ME?
Then I heard Caroline Myss talk about the
Archetype of the Saboteur, and that every human being has this aspect. She
said: “This may be the most difficult of all the archetypes to understand,
because its name is associated with betrayal. Yet the purpose of this archetype
is not to sabotage you. The Saboteur's fears and issues are all related to your
inner sense of value that causes you to make choices that block your own empowerment
and success.”
I found this information
compelling and decided to dig deeper into the concept of Saboteur. I learned,
though the Saboteur may initially seem “bad,” they have an important job to do.
And beneath any negative manifestations, they always have positive intentions.
The Saboteur wants to keep things status quo (even if the status quo is not
great), and wants to keep us safe (even if that means keeping us overweight,
broke, alone and/or small).
What I was learning rang very true to me.
So, I put my guided meditation skills to work and decided to inwardly connect
with this aspect of myself.
As I relaxed into a meditative state, I invited
my Saboteur to come talk to me. I was not sure what to expect. I was
really surprised when my imagination conjured up an image of a small nun, complete with rosary beads and a black habit. I wondered
if this was somehow a mistake. But as our conversation ensued, it was clear,
she was indeed the aspect preventing me from manifesting what I consciously
wanted.
I asked her name, she said Teresa. I asked her
why I was having such problems in my life and why success was so elusive.
She said she didn’t want me to get "too big for my britches." This
made me laugh out loud. Then I asked her what her deeper intentions were. She
said to keep me grounded, humble, and close to God. Wow! I found this
fascinating! I asked her if there were things we could do together, that would help me manifest greater prosperity in my life. I was thrilled when
she said YES! I asked her what she wanted from me. She said:
1. I want you to commit to tithing at least 10
percent of all the money you make.
2. I want you to start every day, devoting yourself to God and spending time in prayer.
3.
4. Promise to never get "too big for your britches" or think you are better than anyone else. In other words, love Gods children.
Sure I can do those four things! She said
as long as I did my part, she would do her part to make sure that things would
be more graceful, easy, and prosperous in my life. I then asked her if she would
be my friend, an ally and like a promotion. She said SURE! She said, rather
than be called a Saboteur, she asked that I call her my "Spiritual Adviser." Then she started to transform. She seemed to get younger, she changed out
of her “bad black habit” and put on a stylish suit.
After this session, wonderful opportunities
started to “miraculously” present themselves - and I had no inclination to
sabotage them. And the manifestation has continued. Today I manifest the things
I want with grace and ease, and I have to say Teresa and I are an incredible
team!
Another example of making
friends with her Inner Saboteur is my client Jamie. Jamie struggled
intensely with her weight. She knew she was making bad dietary choices,
but could not seem control herself. When she first came to me, she was
very angry at herself, and embarrassed about her “lack of self-control.”
I told her not to beat herself up, that there was something important
going on, and my intention was to help her figure it out. I suggested getting in
touch with her Inner Saboteur and she agreed. We did a guided meditation and
this is what happened:
After the induction, I asked
her to invite her Saboteur to join us. Jamie said: “Yes, I see her coming
towards me - and she is a REALLY HUGE warrior woman, she has a shield and a
sword. I would not want to mess with her!” I asked Jamie to ask
this aspect what her name was and what her deeper intentions are.
“She says I can call her Helga…and she is saying her intention is to
protect me from getting too much attention.” Jamie started to cry.
She had been molested as a young girl, and was still carrying subconscious
wounds from the experience. Jamie started to understand Helga was really on her
side. I had them dialogue about how to come up with a plan and some actions
steps to keep her safe. This included working on healthy boundaries, taking
care of her Inner Child, speaking up and telling her truth, and taking a self defense class.
Jamie agreed to the action
steps Helga presented to her. As Jamie followed through with her commitments,
the weight starting naturally dropping away. Her Saboteur has been given a
promotion and is now her “Protector.”
Today Jamie maintains her ideal
weight and says it is a miracle how this simple practice completely transformed
her life. Jamie said: “I tried Weight Watchers, I starved myself, I worked out 3 hours a day, but until Helga was on board, and got her needs met, there was
no way things were going to change - and no way she was going to let me
drop the weight.” Jamie's words were very wise. Will power and hard work are no match for the Inner Saboteur!
Another common message the Saboteur shares is: "Your not important enough or special enough to have what you want." (You can assure them from God's perspective you are - so who are you to argue?!) Then what often comes forward, if the conversation is allowed to continue: "I am just trying to protect you from getting your hopes up, being hurt, or disappointed." A very powerful intention buried beneath a seemingly negative message. The most important thing you can do, if this shows up as part of the conversation, is set the intention to love yourself more. This will raise your vibration, elevate your glass ceiling or "upper limits," and increase your "inner love container," where you will naturally start to attract more good in your life - and be able to graciously receive it when it shows up.
Another common message the Saboteur shares is: "Your not important enough or special enough to have what you want." (You can assure them from God's perspective you are - so who are you to argue?!) Then what often comes forward, if the conversation is allowed to continue: "I am just trying to protect you from getting your hopes up, being hurt, or disappointed." A very powerful intention buried beneath a seemingly negative message. The most important thing you can do, if this shows up as part of the conversation, is set the intention to love yourself more. This will raise your vibration, elevate your glass ceiling or "upper limits," and increase your "inner love container," where you will naturally start to attract more good in your life - and be able to graciously receive it when it shows up.
If it resonates for you, and
you are ready to make friends with this powerful aspect and open to a healing conversation, find some time to go
inward and follow these simple steps:
1. You may
want a journal or note book to write down the wisdom that comes forward.
2. Light a
candle, and set your intentions to connect with your Inner Saboteur, and for the highest possible healing to occur.
3. Relax and
focus on your breathing for about 5 minutes, or until your “monkey mind”
relaxes, and your thoughts slow down.
4. Imaging
walking down 10 steps to your “Inner Healing Sanctuary.”
5. Get a
sense of your surroundings and then ask your Inner Saboteur to join you.
6. When they
arrive, ask them their name, or what they would like to be called.
7. Ask them
what their intentions are, or purpose is.
8. Ask them
what they are afraid of.
9. Ask them what they really
want? What would they love to do?
10. Ask them
if they would like a promotion, or to work together with you, so you can both
have a more fulfilling, happy life
11. Ask them
what action steps you need to take, or commitments you need to make, so you can become friends,
allies and partners.
12. Thank
them and let them know you are so grateful for this opportunity to be friends, and become more
empowered, congruent, and successful.
If you agree to any action
steps, be sure to follow through. If you don’t, your challenging circumstances
will not change - and may even get worse.
If you need additional support, here is a link to 30 minute guided meditation to help you walk through this process. Making Friends with Your Saboteur
If you purchase it, please email me at tammibphd@gmail.com and let me know. I will then gift you my “Relaxing into Self-Love” guided meditation. This meditation will assist you in expanding your "inner container," relax into gracious receptivity, and help you attract support, prosperity, and synchronicity in your life.
If you purchase it, please email me at tammibphd@gmail.com and let me know. I will then gift you my “Relaxing into Self-Love” guided meditation. This meditation will assist you in expanding your "inner container," relax into gracious receptivity, and help you attract support, prosperity, and synchronicity in your life.
Know I am here to answer any questions you might have, just shoot me an email at tammibphd@gmail.com. I am also available for private sessions. Just go to www.tammibphd.com and fill out the “Work with Tammi” form.
I hope this information
supports you, as it has Jamie, me, and hundreds of my clients.
Life does not have to be so
hard! We incarnated to learn the lessons of love and have a good time. As
you do this inner work, and become more congruent within yourself, your life
will naturally start to expand, and become more graceful, easy, joyful,
love-based, and prosperous.
I hope you know how
amazing and exquisite you are. How awesome, wonderful, worthy, and valuable you are. And may you manifest all of your hearts
desires!
You are in my heart, prayers
and meditations, (Teresa says this is part of the deal!). And I am sending
you blessings of light and great love on your human adventure.
